Its been exactly one month since our break-up... and till this day, im not myself.. i miss her so much... missed calling her my baby... missed everything about her, about us..

why must you stick to that decision of yours? its not for the better cause if it is, i definitely won't be feeling like this..
i feel so lost, so aimless... everytime when im alone, my mind will start to reminisce about us.. it totally hurts... seeing how things between us changed for the worst..how u stopped calling me baby, how u started treating me like im a stranger...

that i have to be the one to make the first move..and how u slapped me with a tough pill ie to be just friends
it will never be easy for me... that i know
its never easy to be frens with someone u have romantic feelings for..
it'll just make the situation awkward..

i dunno what i should do now, im stuck in the crossroads...
my mind tells me that its time to move on, but my heart is telling me otherwise...

tell me is this fair? while im suffering emotionally and mentally, u're out having fun...
i still think that the decision is not for the better for both of us, its only for you
sighs

and here i am thinking about what could have been.. :'(

had an awesome time yesterdae
went out to meet jody and karro at tamp..
decided to watch wall-e instead of meet dave..
while we wait for the chosen time slot to arrive,
we went to toys 'r' us where karro got in touch with the kid in her..


after that, we went to starbucks n chilled there till the its time to
get to the cineplex..
wall-e's a good movie..i think?
after taht, sent them home and slacked at jody's place

went to torquay on sat the 23rd..  that place is truly like a surf city.
every surf brands like Billabong, Ripcurl, Roxy and Quiksilver have their own boutiques.
and so i bought a Billabong shirt for my brother, a Volcom shirt and Quiksilver sweater for me.
then we had lunch at la porchetta, an italian restaurant located there.
ordered a medium marinara pasta ie seafood spaghetti... the portion's wicked.. but i managed to finish it with ease.. 
as they sae, mind over matter..if u've set it in ur mind that u can finish up something, it can be done no matter how large the portion is..

after lunch we head further down to lorne going thru the great ocean road in the process.. 
saw some beach houses on top of hills..beauties that come with a huge pricetag..
over at lorne, i bought  few more stuffs before heading back to geelong..
on the way home we saw a whale in the sea.. was about a few hundred miles from the shore 
but yet, it was still visible to the naked eye..
reached geelong at about 5pm and watched she's the man and after dinner,
we watched harry potter's latest instalment..

the last day at aust went well.. had a heavy bkfast prepared by sonya's mum...
apparently potatoes there are huge... she baked two potatoes and added coleslaw with sour cream and some grated cheddar cheese.. all of that was gobbled up in 15mins or so due to time constraints.. 
they then drove me to the airport.. 
using my skills in sweet talk 101, i get to check in at the internet check-in counter instead of the nrmal one.. 
when i didnt even bother to use the internet check-in at sonya's home.. ;)

and so, that ends the solo trip to melbourne, 6 days of fun, cold nights and fish as the main diet... 
now that im back in sg... im back to the usual routine of nt eating fish cos i dun like them...